NP: VH1 Classic

Since I'm taking a ten-day weekend with the stated goal of clearing my head, I figured some sort of detox was in order. So seeing as how I can sleep pretty much as late as I want, I figured I'd give up coffee just to see what would happen. A hint of a headache yesterday, and it took me a bit longer to engage my brain in my soccer match, but so far, so good.

What, you thought I was going to give up beer? Really?

And it may be the lack of caffeine, or it may be the whole "spirit quest" notion of this time off, but I may have figured out what some of the point of this break really is. It boils down to two situations I have to address. First, why do I hate my job so much right now, and what can I do about it? I feel like I may already be on to something there. And second, is my crappy attitude informing my negative perception of things, or is it the negative perception of things (let's assume they are negative for the sake of this argument) that's informing my crappy attitude? The negativity is gaining too much momentum, and I have to figure out how to stop it before all the people who have only met me in the last year and think this is just "Coz being Coz" turn out to be right.

Then there's this: If I'm "powering down" and doing nothing in order to find some clarity, how do I know when I'm finished? Fortunately, said mini-epiphany came to me in the form of the answer to that question, and not in the form of an old Howie Mandel comedy routine. When I stop dreaming about motherfucking clickstream analysis, I'll know I'm on the right path.